The Wall

Here I stand
Shortly after hitting
this solid brick wall,
the one I saw from a mile off,
the one I knew I would reach,
yet still I ran headlong
into this indomitable barrier.
As I stagger from the impact,
my heart wants desperately
to escape from the cage of my chest.
I knew I would arrive here,
yet now that I find myself here,
I have no idea what to do
or who to be.
And now that I’ve hit this wall
toward which I’ve been sprinting,
all of the emotions catch up to me.
I miss the faces, the smiles.
I miss the laughter and tickling.
I miss the feeling of hope and understanding
I miss the love.
I wish I could go back for a hug.
I wish I knew what they were doing.
I wish I hadn’t walked away so easily.
I wish that I was still doing something
to make the world a better place.
As I stand at the wall,
I swallow my regrets,
for I have faith
that I have chosen the right path
and that someday
I will find a place like that again.
So until then,
I stand at the wall,
let these emotions roll over me,
and wait until the time is right
to walk around
and press on.

SCRAPBOOK!!!

Here it is, hot off the presses!

JVC Mobile!

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Senior Year!

Check back tomorrow to see my finished product from my JV year. I am really excited about it.

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Junior Year!

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Sophomore Year!

Countdown to scrapook

I've been dedicating a good amount of my time during this week to working on my scrapbook of the past year. I decided I wanted to share the end result, of course, but also thought I could share some highlights of previous scrapbooks. We're just going to ignore the once I made in high school, because they are bad. So we're going to start with freshman year of college and work our way up to the grand unveiling!

Here is...

Freshman Year

I will say goodbye

I will say goodbye
To late nights on the sofa
Throwing Scrabble tiles at each other.
I will say goodbye
To spontaneous, indescribable adventures
Like a trip to the go-kart track.
I will say goodbye
To a table with seven chairs
And the bread we broke together.
I will say goodbye
To the voice of Marky-Mark
And to the sound of Disney movies.
I will say goodbye
To a ridiculous laugh
And the sense of solidarity.
I will say goodbye
To the smell of incense
And the uncertainty of eggshells.
I will say goodbye
To the strangers who became family,
To the home that changed my heart.
I will say goodbye
To the best hugs ever
And the unbridled, unhesitating love.
I will say goodbye
To kisses on the cheek
And tickling fingers on my waist.
I will say goodbye
To catchphrases and stutters,
To fears and frustrations and tears.
I will say goodbye
To the ones who gave me hope,
The ones who might forget me.
I will say goodbye
To the person I was before, so that
I might embrace the person I am now.
I will say goodbye
To the unforgettable moments
And the moments that slipped by too easily.
I will say goodbye
But I will say hello
To a new and wonderful adventure,
To all the possibility that life holds,
And to the person I will become
Thanks to the ones I say goodbye to.